Sadness

That feeling when your friends in ur grade abandon you.
So im havig a lil partyishthing tonight and I invited 4 of my fellow freshmin and 4 sophmores. one os my Sfriends cant come cuz she has to baby sit, and another might not be able to because of Xmas decorating and shtuff. Then Charry decides she wants to hang with our normal group, her mom said it was hang with them or hang with me she couldnt do both in the same day, and they get together every friday after school. So that bugs me! then Vironica H. ,we have  Vironicas in the freshmin class,  said she now cant come cuz her mom now says no. Then just now the other Vironica called saying she cant come cuz her mom just had her opporation and all so Im fine with that cuz her mom is awsome! so I hope my other friends show up.
Recently I've been feeling really alone. I know their are ppl their for me but its like I cant tell them certain things otherwise I worry ill weigh them down with my sadness and then they will hate me. Sometimes I feel like crying but I cant and its annoying. Sry for being depresssing internet :( I cant help it today.

Peace
Kitty